So I THOUGHT I had a nice time on my trip to CO. I sent both my grandma and mom a card thanking them for the trip. Well, yesterday I get a call from my mom saying my grandma is hurt by something I said. Okay if I said something rude, then I'm sorry. So today I called grandma up and tried to apologize. I told her I was sorry for whatever I did to make her mad at me and I never meant to hurt her. She said she wasn't mad but hurt because she felt I ignored her. Okay I can remember having a conversation with her everday (except when I was sick). She said I just sat there and didn't repsond...well I think we call that LISTENING. Oh my god if I don't respond to every word she says that means I'm ignoring her. I may have said something rude but I took the first step and apologized. The last thing I want is anyone mad at me. She then said she didn't want to argue about it and that it's over now (but to her it's not-cuz she likes to hold grudges). Then very quickly she told me that her dinner was getting cold and she would talk about this another time and then pretty much hung up on me. She's always talking about "what would jesus do"-well I think that is very unchristianlike. Thanks grandma-I feel like a royal piece of shit. Good job you got your way. Whatever it is that I did, I am sorry. What more can I do to make it up to her? I cannot erase the past. However...she doesn't tell me when she's upset with me. How the hell am I supposed to know if I did something wrong if nobody tells me? She is the only one who does that to me. She then goes to my mom and tells her...uh hello? I am a person...you don't have to go through other people to talk to me! I can accept what I did and work to change that, but if I don't know that I've hurt someone, how am I supposed to fix it? GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. My mom also said she's got some other issues going on like her friend's husband and my aunt and uncle's divorce. Mom said I'm her "victim" in other words, she's taking it out on me. Mom said to just let the dust settle and she'll get over it. I did the right thing by apologizing. I don't know what else there is to do.

I have found a person on this trip with a computer...I am having fun for the most part. I am REALLY looking forward to coming home on Saturday though. I am so excited...I miss Josh and my babies...I am now getting sick though...I had an upset stomach last night and chills. Well, that's all for now!

So...we painted the living room/dining room this weekend...it is a tan/beige type of color. It's technical color is called "indian painting." I LOVE the color! It reminds me of a Wendy's frosty. Mmmmm I just wanna lick the wall, ok not really. We are getting our new entertainment cabinet on Friday and our new couch will be here in maybe 6 weeks (custom order couch). I am soooooooooooo excited. I made new pillows to match the couch and I am also going to make or buy new curtains. We are also going to get two ceiling fans. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited. This is right up my alley.

So...over the weekend Josh and I shoveled snow for both the neighbors and the neighbor to the south asked us if we wanted a kitten. So, we came home with a kitten. He is white and grey. His name is Keitaro and he has a middle name cuz I wanted to name him Keitaro after an anime character and the middle name cuz it suits him. Futeki is his middle name. It means fearless because that's what he is. Yay for kitties. He is so cute and sweet-when he wants to be. He slept with us last night.

Man nobody posts anymore! Come on, don't you people want to tell me what time you blew your nose or what time you put a shirt on? Or what time you moved your finger last? How boring is livejournal is if I don't know these things! Hahaha. Happy Thanksgiving to all and to all goodnight. Oh wait it's noon. Well, whatever.

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interesting...how come I never saw any of this money??? WTF? Chrissy you bitch, you slept with me then took the money and ran! I hate you.

So life seems to require money. I swear everything that can go wrong this week has gone wrong. I have two unpaid doctor bills that are both over 100 dollars. My credit card company decided not to send me a bill last month and then charge me 30 dollars for it being unpaid. So I have a 76 dollar credit card bill this month and my credit card is being put on hold until that 76 dollars is paid. I currently have no health insurance and I need to go to the doctor (which would be another 400 hundred dollars or so) and then I have a prescription that is 53 dollars. My car insurance is fucked up and the insurance agent still hasn't gotten back to me so I can findout what is going on with it. I really want a vacation and wish someone could pay all our bills for us. I don't even want to think about asking my mom for money. I already owe her so much. I want to graduate so bad. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
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Yes everyone, it is the day the world was blessed with my presence. Well in order to celebrate this wonderful day, we are having a party. It will be at our house on October 14. We do not have a time yet, but it will be sometime in the evening. Please come with either food or alcohol as we will be neither cooking or buying any alcohol. Please bring whoever you'd like! Call or comment with any questions!

At this very moment we are in the car headed to Door County. Staying in Sturgeon Bay tonight and then heading up to Eliison Bay tomorow afternoon/evening. Should be a fun weekend. Just a quick side note-bitch, you suck donkey dick. I think it is funny how you try to make your voiemail all serious and shit-keyword try. I hate work and am looking for a new job. So if anyone knows of anything good for a job, it would be very helpful. Blah blah blah.

Just to let everyone know, I have a new cell phone number. If you would like this new number you can im me and I will give it to you, pending I know who the fuck you are. Work sucks, and I have been sick for the last 3 weeks off and on. Josh and I are doing well. Nothing else going on other than that.

Just incase some of you don't know, Josh and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary on July 4th. We spent the day together-I took him to White Sox game (awesome time!)and then we went to a party at his aunt's house, and then we spent the evening at the racine marina with our feet in a hot tub, watching the fireworks. Very romantic and whatnot. This past weekend, we went to the Dells and had an awesome time as well. Weeeeeeeeeeeee.

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So, I've been holding this in, cuz I don't wanna be rude or anything. However...I am kinda irritated with someone right now. This person has a significant other and I am happy for that fact. However, I feel like a third wheel a lot of times. I also feel as if this significant other is more important than our friendship. I dunno...I am not angry, maybe just hurt. I hope this person isn't mad at me for something I did or said.

So I spent at least a week on this f-ing project for GEOG 330. I did my presentation, and thought I did a really good job. Well, the grade came back today-I got a 22 out of 30. That pissed me off SO much. It makes me not want to try any harder for that class. Whatever I do, it never seems to be enough for that teacher. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Other than that, a good day overall...yay for warm weather...makes me happy.

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So my grandma calls me up yesterday afternoon. I was in the car with Josh at the time getting my car (all sorts of shit happening with my car) from Wal-mart. She tells me she heard from a family member that Josh is going to break up with me!!! WTF!!! I said "where'd you get a crazy idea like that?" and she said "well that family member said he didn't wanna get married." I was irate by then...I was like "I don't know who told you that, but that's not true at all. We are very much together and are doing really well." Well, I hut her up and changed the subject and ended the phone call. The worst par tis I had to tell Josh what my crazy grandma said. I guess it just pisses me off cuz I don't want him to think my family doesn't like him or something. They really do like him, but they are worried for me. They are fucking traditional...they want us to get married right away... if and when that happens, it will happen at the right time. Not anytime soon. I feel better just writing this out...my brother is the best though (besides you dear). He told me to keep on doing what I'm doing...and he's never seen me happier. That meant a lot to me. Same with my mom actually. She said to do what I'm gonna do and not worry about the family cuz it will all work out in the end. At least they're on board...blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

So lately I have been feeling really frusterated with myself. I really want/need a job. I've applied at a few places, but it seems hopeless. I am well qualified and a hard worker, so what the fuck? I feel so bad tho, cuz I hate having my mom pay for everything...plus I feel it looks bad to Josh. I don't want him to think I'm spoiled or something. I wanna change my ways of being lazy and unmotivated about work. I am fed up with being lazy and I want to start and excersise program of some sort. I still wanna get back into ice skating. I am happy in every other aspect of my life, just not my professional life. I WANT A JOB!!! If only I could get paid for cooking or baking or something.